"Today is the day the Lord has made, let us be glad and rejoice in it." Pslam 118:24
We are truly blessed in this country to worship the religion of our choice. I freely admit that I have struggled with my religion and faith because of the disease that took my sweeties brain and memories and left him with a body that is now in a state where he is helpless and must depend on others for simple daily living. I know God has a plan, I just haven't figured it out when, in my opinion ofcourse, my sweetie could have done such great things in His name. But I know that God took my hand and led me through those dark days, I was just so mad at Him that I didn't realize He was always with me until much later. That is so comforting to know He is there all the time, ready and with open arms, even with my back turned to Him, he patiently waited until I turned around and for that I am grateful.
Until next time....
a divine plan we're not meant to understand. i am glad you have faith to lead you through it.
ReplyDeleteYou are encouraging. I'm not there yet . . . This cancer thing . . .
ReplyDeleteLove your honesty . . . the message in church this morning had a similar flavor and had me questioning my beliefs . . . .
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ReplyDeleteYes, I have had those times of loss of faith, too. I think our struggles with faith are natural and understandable.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your honesty. God does bring us though difficult times and very often we see no sense in it however we most always remember he is God and He knows what He is doing as He has the Master plan. I am sure you have still questions in your mind however God does not mind questions but it is very good you are back on tract. God is a faithful God and He will NEVER leave your side
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you have had struggles with your faith. I can relate, I have had periods of being "mad at God" but am always grateful to live in a country where I can have my choice of worship!
ReplyDeleteOh this is so true. I've turned my back many of times only to relearn His amazing grace!
ReplyDeleteIt is so hard when things like that happen, but, as you know, gratitude is something that when we seen it, can really change our attitude in ways we have not expected. I think I need to be working on my gratitude journal too. Hugs to you from Texas!
ReplyDeleteHow strange that in the darkest times when we need God most we have the hardest time finding Him. But as you say, He is patient and waiting when we finally come back. Gratitude in the bleak times is hard but perhaps even more essential then when things are 'good'. xo
ReplyDeleteI totally get this Deanna. Its often hindsight that reveals the grace. But He is so good and patient and faithful. My heart is happy to know that you've come full circle. xo
ReplyDeleteOhhh do I understand this all too well. I know you struggle because there is absolutely no grace or dignity in your honey that he has a right to. You are much stronger than you know. It just gets buried every now and again only to emerge with a greater force. xo
ReplyDeleteWe certainly don't deserve His patience and understanding. Your emotions and feelings are very understandable and I know I would feel the same way. I think you have done a lot on your Sweetie's behalf and maybe have spread more of God's love than you will ever know.
ReplyDeleteagreed. I find my faith continually grows and changes daily... it always has. ( :
ReplyDeleteTo grow and become more like Christ does involve pain and suffering but thank goodness God does promise to be with us through the process and shows His grace as we are able to see. At least, this has been my experience. I am not ashamed to say I have been very angry with God and cried out to understand His plan but He has gently loved and comforted me and said "My grace is sufficient" just trust me…You are a light to many because of what you have had to endure and the fire is refining you into a jewel which one day you will place at the feet of Jesus..Hugs my friend.
ReplyDeleteOH how I can relate. That's how I felt when I lost my dad and I know I'll feel the same when my mom goes. I question things now with her aging and being in so much pain all the time. I know God loves us and has a plan but it just seems so hard to understand, "why" sometimes. You are right though, He sees us through even though we may not understand.
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