Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Dear Blog....



Dear Blog,

I know it's been a mighty long time since I last wrote, but I've been thinking about you for some time now. Wanting to write, but then not wanting to. My life has changed, no not physically, I'm still in my home, but mentally, I guess. Since my sweetie passed away in September and with his Memorial Service in November I have felt a huge chunk of my life is gone. You can easily say that my sweetie has been "gone" for a long time. Indeed he has, mentally. But physically he was still with me. I could still reach out  and touch him, I could still give him a kiss, I could still whisper in his ear, "I love you."  But with his passing, that too is gone. I truly did not think I would mourn his passing to the extent I have. But one never knows how mourning comes to us. This was not a happy Christmas season. Yes, I spent lots of good times with friends and family, went to church events, out to eat, attended musical events, went on a Christmas House Walk. But with all that merriment, I still felt a sadness, I just couldn't get into the spirit of the holidays. I didn't decorate this year, which is absolutely the first time in my 74 years, that there was no Christmas tree in my home. No decorations, no tinsel, no lights.  Indeed the Grinch dominated my scene this year.

In less than a week it will be a new year, 2018.  I want this to be a good year. Between what is happening in our country, what is happening in the world, and what has happened in my life 2018 merits to be better in everyway. Strife will continue, there is no doubt about that but we can still continue to pray for a more peaceful world, Trump will still be President, but again we can pray for good decisions, and life continues, and that is for certain.

Looking back, I really took some terrific trips this year, Arizona, Door County, Lexington, New Mexico, Colorado, Germany, and Prague. I already have trips planned for Arizona, California, Utah, and Hawaii. Nothing overseas....yet.  My life is blessed with goodness. I have good friends, a great family, a wonderful church community, my two kids....life is good. The loss of my sweetie will always leave a hole in my heart, but knowing that he is in a much better place also fills my heart with joy.

Scenes from Christmas....

Anticipation of presents to come...


Sisters....


Come on Dad, you can pick your friends, you can pick your nose, but you can't pick your friend's nose.....



Joy oh joy...


Surprise....


We have a new doctor in the house....


Are we done yet....


Grands and Great Grands....life doesn't get much better 

Happy New Year Everyone....!!!!

Until next time,

8 comments:

  1. OH, my sweet friend! I have thought about you these last months and through the holiday season. Even after a "long goodbye", I know this has been a difficult life event for you to navigate. Sending big hugs!

    PS - hoping we meet up in AZ. I can give you the real hug you deserve then. xo

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  2. Hoping 2018 is a year of joy and celebrations!!

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  3. Thinking of you and that tender grieving heart . . .

    I hope 2018 brings on some zip, pizazz, new . . .
    And fills you, (selfishly, me too) with some honesty and integrity . . .
    peacefulness, kindnesses . . . our lives and land are hungry . . .

    Trips, travels planned, we benefit too, glorious photography!

    Caring about you Deanna . . .

    Loved your family photos . . . they lit up my day!

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  4. You have a beautiful family! I hope 2018 brings you peace and happiness.

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  5. Oh, Deanna, I have thought of you so many times over the past few months and especially during this holiday season. Change can be so hard. But I know you. You will come through this and have that wonderful Deanna smile on your face and sparkle in your eyes the next time I see you, which I hope will be soon. In the meantime, you are in my thoughts and prayers and I'm hoping 2018 is a better year for all of us. Sending hugs and love to you, my dear friend.

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  6. Oh sweetie! I can't even imagine the sense of loss you felt this year. You can only do so much to take your mind off of things, but it always comes back to haunt. I pray that 2018, gives you great joy!

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  7. Prayers and hopes that 2018 will be a better, sweeter year for all of us, and especially for you! Thanks for sharing your holiday photographs and your photographs all year. Love and good wishes for 2018.

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  8. Sending you hugs, dear Deanna, and wishing only the very, very best of things for you in 2018.
    xo.

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