It is amazing how a simple bouquet of flowers from the grocery store can brighten our days. When I brought these beauties home all of the lilies were tight little buds, but this one broke free yesterday....it's almost like she is saying, get my outta here. And that is exactly the way I have been feeling lately....get me outta here. It snowed again yesterday and today is bright and sunny but mighty windy creating little mini vortexes in the snow. (def...a whirling mass of water, especially one in which a force of suction operates, a whirlpool). Ever once in awhile I like to use words that make me appear smart. did it?
I need to adopt a more optimistic attitude, because my attitude lately has been like a vortex, swirling in the "what is wrong with me" whirlpool. I just read that optimism is the yeast in the bread of life. With it we rise, without it our spirits fall flat. I am hoping 10 days in sunny Arizona will brighten my spirits, but I fear once I get out there I might not want to return to this weather. Today it is supposed to reach a high of 30, then we won't see that again until who knows when, teens and single digits for the rest of the week.....heavy sigh.
Honestly I think what has me down is that this week (the 25th) marks our wedding anniversary of 50 years. If life was normal, a party or a special trip would commemorate the day, but sadly life circumstances prevents that from occurring. I am blessed that a small group of my girlfriends are taking me to a lovely place for lunch this week in honor of the day. So yes, I am feeling sorry for myself, thinking of the what if's and that 50 years together deserves more than a trip to the nursing home and the man I love looking at me with no memories of those years.
Enough wallowing, good news, I have found someone who is staying at my home with my kids while I am away. She came yesterday for a meet and greet and the kids instantly took a likin' to her, so I think all will be well while I am away.
And PS....still using my 50mm lens.
"A light heart lives long" ~ An Irish Proverb
Until next time.....