Monday, June 24, 2013
Dark & Cloudy With Little Light
Last night I couldn't sleep....so what else is new? After tossing and turning I decided to get up and go sit on the back porch, that usually lulls me to sleep, or at least settles my thoughts. I think it is the quietness of the night with an occasional bird chirp (a bird with insomnia too?) that calms my soul.
I received some bad news on Friday about my sweetie. The Memory Care facility that I raved about last week has informed me (gently) that they can no longer care for my husband. He now requires constant supervision, he can no longer do anything for himself, including eating....he continues to fall frequently without injuries so far, he is entering the last stages of Alzheimers. If he was confined to a wheel chair that would be a different story, but because he is so mobile, they do not have the staff to care for him. I now must find a nursing home to care for him for his safety. Something that I had hoped and prayed would never happen. The staff will assist me in finding this place, they will go with me on my search and when the decision is made they will transfer him to his new home. My heart aches, I feel like the image above....dark & cloudy with little light.
"You cannot prevent the birds of sadness from flying over your head, but you can prevent them from nesting in your hair." ~ Chinese Proverb
Until next time.....