Wednesday, November 27, 2013

One Step At A Time....

Yesterday morning as I was doing and planning my busy couple of days ahead, grocery shopping, turkey dinner prep, setting the table (with my newly purchased particle board), putting clean sheets on the beds, you know all that stuff that needs or you want to get done before the BIG DAY, feeling so blessed, however my blessed feeling suddenly made an about face and instead of feeling blessed, I was feeling stressed.

The phone rang at 8:30 AM, and checking the caller ID prior to answering (I always do that, too many unwanted calls from solicitors) I recognized the number was from the nursing facility where my sweetie is residing.  You know that pit that you get in your stomach when you know this might not be a call you want to receive, well that instinct was right.  The caller said that my sweetie had suffered a seizure and they were sending him to the hospital.  WHAT??!!  A seizure, never has happened before.

So without going into any of the details, brain scan was fine, blood work was fine, but he is in the hospital because he has would you believe it....another Urinary Tract Infection.  Now a UTI literally wipes my sweetie out, it has devastating effects on him, as well as many other elderly people, especially Dementia patients.  The Emergency Room Dr. suspects that he may not have had a seizure, but a reaction to the UTI.  But back in the hospital he is, confused, agitated and obviously uncomfortable.

I left the hospital after the diagnosis and while he was waiting to be transferred to a room, I went to Trader Joe's to buy all those extremely, delightful, delicious, and tempting goodies they always have during the holidays to delight my family on Thanksgiving.  Everyone else must have had the same idea, because the aisle were jammed.  Back home and after emptying the bags of groceries, I called to find out if my sweetie had been assigned a room, yep, just left.

OK finish making out grocery list for final trimmings and eating a very late lunch on the run,  I was off to the hospital, finding him still agitated.  I was there to feed him, and spend time with him, talking to the nurses, asking if maybe they could give him a little something to calm him down until the medicine kicks in to relieve some of his discomfort.  Done....now I am off for that second trip to the grocery store.

Oh brother, by the time I arrived home, emptied the car, put everything away, I was EXHAUSTED, crying exhausted, waves of weariness washed over me.  Do you ever get that way, just so dang tired and overwrought with things that crash into your heart that you just cry?  I know he will be well taken care of, it is just so difficult to see him when he is in such discomfort and not understanding what's going on.

I fixed a cup of coffee, heated up a chocolate donut (chocolate has a way of making things seem better) sat in my "hush harbor chair" with both kids on my lap (now that is no small feat since Toby is a little large for my lap) both giving me the lovin' I needed at that moment.



Picked up Sarah Ban Breathnach's book, Simple Abundance, turned to the page dated yesterday and it was just the chapter I needed to read.

   All shall be well
   And all shall be well
   And all manner of things shall be well


And yes, the sun does come up every day, with new possibilities both good & not so good, but life does go on, and I take it one step at a time....for that I am grateful.

Until next time....

23 comments:

  1. Oh, Deanna, I'd just love to come by and give you a big, warm hug! Sending all my love and hoping that your sweetie calms down and feels better soon!

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  2. oh Deanna... I'm sorry about your honey! And although I don't have the same "to-do list" as yours, I have felt the exhaustion you mention. Thankfully, your two "kids" can provide a spot of love & comfort.
    I have no doubt your family will understand if something is not taken care of for their visit. From what you've shared about your family, imagine they just step in and help with whatever needs to be done... including some of the cooking & meal prep. Think of it as "coziness in the kitchen." I can see all your beautiful grandchildren smothering you with their love.
    Remember, you are providing the "gathering place" and now it's time for you to relax and go with the flow!!
    Hugs to you my internet friend!

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  3. Oh dear, so sorry to hear that your sweetie is sick... and sorry that you are under such stress. I was right with you when you described the busy stores, the exhaustion, the tears... :( and then, Simple Abundance and that particular page, I've said that in my head more times than I can count. I hope things settle down, and you have a peaceful Thanksgiving.

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  4. I am so sorry to hear that your honey is sick, hope he feels better soon. A big hug and happy day tomorrow! xo

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  5. Deanna, I wish I lived close by. I would come over and help out. Since I can't do that, please accept my cyber HUG and know that I'm saying a prayer for you and your sweetie. I hope he will feel better quickly. And all the things you feel you must do--they will get done. One step at a time. One step at a time. Blessings to you and your family.

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  6. I'm so very sorry to hear this. We are heading to Batavia to be with my mother in law tomorrow (87) She is in a total care unit. I know how difficult a UTI can be. Praying that you will feel God's peace in this trial...that His goodness will be evident as you celebrate Thanksgiving.

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  7. With tears in my eyes I am sending you a huge two armed hug right through the computer. Life can get so overwhelming at times and even the strongest much flinch. Prayers are going up for your husband and also for you I would like to say just go crawl in the bed and don't come out for awhile but I know you aren't that kind of person. You will carry on, head up. Blessings to you. Peggy from PA

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  8. So sorry to hear that your Sweetie is feeling bad. Such worry.
    I do know that feeling of weariness. It's emotional as much as physical.
    We just have to have faith, that all SHALL be well.

    Have a Happy Thanksgiving. Enjoy your family.

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  9. i am so sorry for the added stress and worry. i am sorry for your husband, too. i know that cannot be easy on him, physically or mentally, whether he is aware of it or not. bless you.

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  10. Oh sweet friend of mine. My heart is breaking for you right now. Please know I am lifting you up in prayer constantly because I know your burden is heavy and that God can help you carry your load when you can no longer handle it.
    I also pray that you will be able to enjoy your time with your family as they are all coming in together for the holiday - may God grant all of you peace, comfort, and happiness throughout the days ahead.
    {{{hugs}}}

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  11. Oh, my friend! There is never a good time for these things to happen but this is particularly bad timing for you, I know. My mother has gone through countless UTI episodes with my bed-ridden step-father so I can empathize with you ... to some extent. It's harder when it's your 'sweetie' and I see the wear and tear it takes on her. I'll certainly be remembering you. And I hope the family reunion comes off well and that this just kind of rolls into it. Celebrate your lovely family. xoxo

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  12. Oh my, what a difficult jolt that call was... praying your sweetie gets over this infection soon and back to where life is 'familiar.' Praying for you too, Deanna...that God strengthens and comforts you...

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  13. Very sorry to read about all the stresses in the middle of preparing for a joyous occasion. Yes, I have been so overwhelmed I just stopped my car right where I was and sobbed like a baby. Praying the stress is washed away by knowing God is right there in your midst. So sorry.

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  14. So sorry Deanna to hear that things are so stressful, look after yourself funny I read that passage yesterday and made a note of that poem too. Have a peaceful and happy Thanksgiving

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  15. Oh Deanna! I'm so sorry! Sending you big hugs!!!!! My Mom was the same way with the UTI - so confused and agitated. It's hard seeing our loved ones that way! And yes, I've been there when I've been so exhausted that the tears just won't stop. You and your husband are in my prayers. May you have a Happy Thanksgiving knowing that God is with you. Trust in Him. xoxo (ps - I love that SBB quote! too!)

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  16. Oh Deanna.....I feel for you my step dad had the same problem with the UTI, all I can say is hang in there . Hugs Saun

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  17. Deanna,
    Your family will be with you for the Holiday, you can lean on each other during this time. I am sorry for the challenges you face and keeping you in prayer. May you find peace in the blessings you have.

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  18. So sorry you had to go through all that over the holiday. Wishing you a happy and relaxing Thanksgiving!

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  19. Dear and Sweet Deanna, Hugs and prayers to you.
    Pam oxoxox

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  20. Dear Deanna, I hope you are gathering support and strength from your family on this day of thanksgiving. Wishing you and your husband all the best.

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  21. I am so sorry to hear about your Husband. My prayer go out to the both of you.

    Big Hugs my friend.

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  22. Sorry abou tthe added stress, but glad that all turned out ok. Those uTI's in elderly are really bad.

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