Reconciliation, a rather long word with 6 syllables and 7 vowels with a rather simple meaning....to make oneself no longer opposed. Synonyms of harmony and agreement, good vibes and okay are all positive words associated with reconciliation. Antagonism, denial, refusal and opposition are antonyms (a word opposite in meaning) for this same word. I pause to ask myself on this Ash Wednesday, would I rather be in harmony, have good vibes or be in a state of denial and opposition?
Ever since my husband began to obviously decline as Alzheimer's took over his life he had to step away from the activities he loved. Working and studying for over 4 years to become ordained as a Deacon in the Catholic church and to begin his life as a Deacon, assisting at Masses, leading Communion Services, performing baptisms, visiting the ill, all to come to a way too early halt due to the disease. I was angry, angry at God, angry at the Church, angry at some people from the Church. I told God I was angry with Him (more than once I might add), He understood and He waited for me.
I have decided that I would rather live with good vibes, harmony & agreement rather than denial and opposition. It may take me longer than the 40 days of Lent to come to this reconciliation, but I am resolved to try. There are people I need to forgive which is difficult because when we needed them the most they were not there, but with the strength that God continues to give me I will.
Like the petals on the daffodils opening gradually, I too will open myself to reconciliation, have good vibes and be okay during these 40 days of Lent.
Please visit me today as I am musing on our senses at our collaborative blog Focusing on Life.
"God loves you whether you like it or not." ~ A bumper sticker
Until next time......